July 06, 2016

A Prayer of Repentance from a White Girl

Leviticus 5:7 Our ancestors sinned and are no more,
    and we bear their punishment.

I do on this day acknowledge and grieve of the sins of my ancestors. 
I am white and American. 
I repent of the system of oppression that has held others down. 
Although I never owned a slave or physically harmed anyone, I do acknowledge that I am part of a system where my race gives me advantages.
I have taken this system for granted. 
I have denied its existence. 

I repent of the sins of my nation.
I repent of the sins of my race.
I repent and turn away.
I feel deeply the sorrow.

When I think of the times someone was beaten, raped, held down, forced into embarrassing positions, ridiculed, mocked, made to look foolish, told to stand back, sit down, turn around, move forward, I think of the rocks and the ground that were witnesses. 

They saw what was often hidden behind doors. Or sometimes boldly done in the streets in public view. The shame of everyone standing as you were torn apart limb from limb, from the inside first.

I think of the blood that was shed and the witnesses. Perhaps people . . . perhaps rocks, trees, wind, ground, water, or darkness.
The price is heavy. The weight is heavy.
Even if we did not lift a finger. It happened.
It was allowed. No one stopped it from happening.

I repent of at times thinking equity and equality were the same thing.

Please forgive us. We have done you wrong. 
Be patient with me. Help me to understand.
Be patient when I don't understand. Say it again.
A different way so I get it. 

You are our brothers. You are our sisters. We treated you as aliens.
Foreigners. Infidels. We treated you as animals. Property. 
When that was not allowed we made excuses. 

We have no excuse. We have no recourse. 
Save the blood of the lamb. We are washed clean. 
But there is still work to do.  
This is our legacy and our curse. It is ours to carry.
God help us all. 

February 17, 2016

Risen (2016): Movie Review

Risen is an excellent story and provides a great example of storytelling in a faith-based film. It follows the faith journey of one Roman centurion from doubter to seeker to perhaps follower. This was an interesting concept because this is one of my church's tenets: we welcome doubters, seekers, and followers to our morning services.

Clavius is a Roman centurion, disciplined, hardened by war, and extremely cynical. His one and only dream is a "day without death." He is asked by Pilate to make sure no one steals the body of the man called Yeshua, who has just died by crucifixion. But when the body goes missing, Clavius leads the hunt to find the missing corpse and make sure rumors cease that Yeshua has risen.

This was a fast-paced film, part police procedural (if a Roman soldier can be compared to a policeman)/part historical drama/part inspirational story.

Clavius is like many Roman soldier we have seen before in movies. He is surrounded by violence and does all things with perfection, When he comes home from a bloody day, he just wants to soak in a bath and have some peace. Only Pilate keeps his busy with many tasks, from breaking legs, to guarding tombs, to investigating missing bodies.

He takes the tasks set before him seriously. He is a given a new assistant who is equally ambitious. His investigation takes him through the streets of Jerusalem, both in the wealthy and not-so-wealthy areas.

The cast did an excellent job with their characterizations. The dialogue seems sincere and true to life. They characters are complex and not stereotypical. They each have a reason for what they have done and are currently doing.

This is a good film for rediscovering the story of Christ's resurrection from an outsider's perspective. What would it be like for a Roman to speak to the followers of Christ? He thinks many of the characters are mad or "touched," as he calls it.

Although many of the scenes are not found in the Bible, all of the scenes are plausible and could have happened. The joy of Jesus' followers is compared inadvertently to the drive of the Romans. I think a film like this will do more for evangelical efforts than many of the faith-based films out there currently.

January 23, 2016

Why You Should Clean Off Your Car During a Snow Day, Even if You Aren't Going Anywhere

I have to admit it -- for all of the jokes people make about the way Tar Heels handle snow and wintry precipitation, I am secretly proud of the state I now consider my home. I like the multiple days I'm trapped at home. As a true type A gal, it's difficult for me to sit still for long. These snowy days are a great excuse to do just that with no guilt.

I can sit home, read books, binge watch movies, eat semi-junk food, and watch all of the crazy videos people post on social media. There's no shame in not wanting to drive or go out in this mess. I have been in North Carolina 20 years now. It's hard to believe.

But I do have this one ritual. If I'm housebound longer than a full day, I go outside and clean off my car. Even though I don't plan on leaving the house, I go outside and get as much snow and ice off the car as possible.

You might wonder why I do this. Why go to all that trouble? I get all bundled up and trek outside, clean off my car, and then go back inside. Many people in my situation just think it's a good idea to let Mother Nature do her thing and let the car melt off naturally. I say, you are missing the fun. It's also the socially responsible thing to do.

Let me 'splain.

Okay, so first the fun. Do you remember when you realized how much fun it was to peel off old dead skin from sunburn? That's nothing compared to the joy of de-icing a car that has been sitting in an NC ice storm. When you begin, you will feel like this is the impossible task. You turn on the defrost in my car and you'll scrape off the first window. Even though all the snow comes off, the layer of ice is still there. In the case of this year, 2015, there was at least an inch and a half of ice to batter through. You start working away at that ice, and it's like trying to dig through concrete.

But as the defrost works and your sheer force of determination begins to whittle away that ice, you find it: the point of resistance. You see a little wiggle of movement and then -yes! - Eureka, a huge chunk of ice the size of your entire window all falls off at once. "Timber!" you shout and lean to the left just in time. Boy do you feel accomplished!

You then do the same for every inch of your car. Sweat pouring off your face, snot running down your nose, your poor gloves soaked through, you painstakingly work the sheet of ice off your car. Whew! Now you can leave -- if you wanted to.

Okay, so that's the fun reason, but there's another reason to do this act of charity. Yes, charity. As fun as it is to clean off a North Carolina iced-in car, it is totally unfun to drive behind an individual who has not done this work. Many an NC driver does the bare minimum. They clear off ice enough so they can see out of their driver side window only and let everything else "melt off naturally."

That's all well and good, but what actually happens is as this melting happens, the huge sheets of ice fall of the cars at top speed, temporarily blinding the driver behind you. Then your remains of ice sit in the road, making hazardous roads again. So, for pete's sake, do this girl a favor and clean off your car. This video below further convince you.

It's good for your heart, good for your soul, and good for community relations!

September 15, 2015

Movie Review: Black Mass (2015)

Black Mass is an action-packed crime drama with a bleak and disturbing tone. It tells the true story of Whitey Bulger, a violent criminal living in South Boston, who was a local criminal until he became an FBI informant. He was the brother of a state senator and the childhood friend of a local rising FBI agent, who talks him into making a deal. As an informant, he gave the FBI leads on local mafia in exchange for his protected status. He was then able to commit crimes on a more national scale and rise to power. Eventually, his deeds caught up to him, but by then, he had escaped and wasn't found until much, much later in life.

The narrative of the film is constructed by showing all of Whitey's former employees sharing their testimonies with the FBI and admitting what they had done under his leadership. We don't know exactly what influenced them to do this, but it is alluded to in their stories. We are left to consider why this or that employee might have decided to testify against Whitey.

The screentime is filled with different acts of violence, very few which were perpetrated by Whitey himself. Whitey hires the muscle and lets them clean up his messes. Whitey is a disciplined, methodical man with excellent grooming skills. I will have to say Johnny Depp owns the character and he's almost unrecognizable as himself. This is an acting job comparable to that of Daniel Day-Lewis, who seems to transform into any character he takes on.

Altogether, this is a suspenseful and violent film with some very twisted characters. An all-star cast takes this challenge on and blows it out of the water. The plot and tone reminded me very much of The Departed (2006), although Black Mass is a less violent film than that. Instead it relies more on the narrative of its different storytellers to bring people into the story. There is more of an emphasis to on the setting of South Boston in Black Mass.

This is a methodical crime drama which will most likely win a nomination for Johnny Depp as best actor.

August 27, 2015

Movie Review: Mr. Holmes

Mr. Holmes is a leisurely-paced re-imagining of a later in life Sherlock Holmes. Sir Ian McKellan plays Sherlock Holmes as he might be as an old man, long after 221B Baker, long after John Watson is his bosom compadre. Sherlock is getting older and beginning to show signs of dementia. His ability to read people out of the minutiae that others miss seems to still be intact, though.

In this imaginary literary universe, his older age begins to soften him and he seems to regret some of his past interactions. He befriends a young companion over honeybee-tending. This movie was entertaining enough. The pacing and tone was a little uneven. There is a solve-a-mystery subplot that seems almost like an homage to Vertigo with a suspenseful tone. For the most part, though, the story remains calmly plods through this peek into a would-be Sherlock universe. The film would be most enjoyed by Sherlock Holmes fans and lovers of all things British. The most enjoyable moments for me were the inferences to the Sherlock universe we all know and love (The Diogenes Club, Mycroft, the famous deerstalker hat).

November 15, 2014

Movie Review: Gone Girl (2014) and Lessons About Marriage

Gone Girl is a book-to-movie project that only took 2 years to complete, compared to most movie projects, which take an average of four years (Maze Runner, Twilight, and Hunger Games are all examples of this). Once I heard the movie was being released, I re-read the book in anticipation of the movie release. I have to say, the book was outstanding. I work at a library, and many people were checking out this book. Sometimes I am slow to pick up a hot book, just because I can be stubborn. The book took a genre like suspense, and took it to the new level. The book changes viewpoints and storytelling strategies so many times, and just as you think you have finally predicted the ending, it ends in a way that no one could possibly expect.

Only recently did I find a book that compares called The Farm by Tom Rob Smith, released two years after Gone Girl. Suffice it to say, I am not often enamored with adult fiction. Gone Girl is truly special.

I went into the movie with high hopes, but also realizing that I might be disappointed just because I knew the plot. Would the movie live up to the hype I have been building up for two years? I am happy to report the movie was just right. I was able to forget about the book and let the movie tell the story.

September 08, 2014

Movie Review: The Maze Runner (2014)

The Maze Runner is the latest film adaptation of a best-selling teen novel. Written by James Dashner, the book was published in 2010, so it took only four years for this book-to-movie project to come to completion, which is similar to the Hunger Games book-to-movie conversion. Four years is really not that long in the adaptation business. But I digress . . .

Thomas wakes up in an rickety, rusty elevator, which is rising at an alarming rate. At the time, he doesn't know who he is or why he is here. Disoriented and nauseous, when the elevator stop, he is greeted by a welcoming committee of boys that would rival Peter Pan's the Lost Boys or the gang of thieves in Oliver Twist. They speak to him roughly, won't answer any questions, and lock him up. Welcome to the Glade, Thomas.